had a long talk with an old friend... or rather.. my ex-girlfriend...

i still remember how i hated christians and catholics.. especially catholics.. after there was this guy that came along... right.. details not needed i guess..

but i took a long hard look at myself in the mirror just now.. real long... i smiled.. and laughed.. haha... me? hated christians and catholics? if i ever tell any of my colleague.. they would call me a liar.. all of them know that i love everything about God, about church... they would never believe me...

this goes to show one thing.. it has to be GOD... i thank God for the things i went thru in the past. i thank God picking me up right where i fall.. everytime.. all the time.. outstretch arms.. thank you lord...

some people ask me why i am able to talk about my past and not feel remorse about the things i do.. why i am able to talk about my past and yet laugh at my own stupidity.. haha.. the weirdest question was.. how come my life so exciting one..

let me start with the last question.. why my life seem so exciting.. as dramatic as an soap opera can get.. i mean.. what i say is what i went thru.. it's up to me to say, up to you to believe.. you can choose not to believe what i said.. but.. that's what i went thru.. haha..

reasons why i can talk about my past and yet laugh and not feel condemned about it.. is because.. Christ's work on the cross is FINISHED and PERFECT. isnt life easier when we simply just laugh at our own mistake and let it pass.. and let GOD takes over.. i mean, if there's anything we can do about it, we would not have made that mistake in the first place. our flesh is still a fallen body.. we still make mistakes.. but, that's not going to stop us from being bless, not going to stop us from getting healed.. so.. why worry? why brood over it? shouldn't our eyes be fixed on Jesus? HIS FINISHED and PERFECT work on the cross..

that's nothing i can do without Christ.. nothing.. my life has changed.. it takes God to change a person like me.. i was a guy who hated christian and catholics (in the past, dont worry), a person full of pride and arrogance... and i thank God for all the tribulations and trials in my life that HE uses to show me HIS love for me.. for all that HE has done to come close to me, for all that i was blessed with, for all the changes in my life.. i thank HIM and HIM alone.. hallelujah... praise God..

my life is never the same again..